Always Alone (AKA The blues)

So, in the end, we are always fundamentally alone. I'm hurting tonight. I am so intensely lonely tonight and don't have anyone to call. I don't feel like I will ever be given the chance to sing anything solo or with a quartet, no matter how much I work with my voice teacher. Its frustrating because then Marissa waltzes in, and bam, because she is dating one and friends with the other, she gets several solos. I could have sung 'Bleak Midwinter' better than she did. I learned the carol from the Brits at age 10.

Now don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that I'm good, but I am better than they give me credit for. But guess what, guys. You put me in a place where all I can hear are the basses? (our church) Or where I can't see the conductor? I'm not going to do as well. I do better at the higher parts, the more complex things that actually have a tune, rather than the 'rounds'. I could have done 'A Babe is Born' or the one I actually worked on with my voice teacher 'There is no Rose'. I KNEW that one. I am just so frustrated. Because I am decent, if you give me a chance. I have a pretty voice. All I ask for is a chance.

And to my fellow choir members, Gabe loved his gifts. No, they weren't huge, but guess what? When most people give me the money the day before, I don't have a hell of a lot of chance to shop. And enough with the gift cards, those are not 'big' things. And yes, I am getting him one. But please. Every gift does not have to be a gift card from the Mall. If you want input on his gifts, or want to suggest a new idea, please do. Otherwise let me find something he will really like. All the $$ will get used eventually.